Time To Set the Record Straight: Part
2
by BARBARA HARTWELL
A STRATEGIC RETREAT
I have found it necessary to withdraw
from the public arena for several compelling reasons: Serious concerns about my
safety including threats to my life. Financial destitution. Disability/chronic
illness.
I have found nobody among my family, friends and associates
willing
to provide any serious backup, financially, professionally or
otherwise.
On the contrary, I have been abandoned and betrayed by so
many people, I've lost count. For far too long, I have been up against the most
brutal persecution all alone, with nobody I can rely on for the type of solid
support I need.
And what's it like to be the target of a CIA
"neutralization campaign" ? The enemy deploys their massive artillery with
impunity, manned by inexhaustible battalions of troops.
Folks, I am
outmanned and outgunned.
I won't back down, nor will I sacrifice my
principles. I will not
compromise with my adversaries. And I will not be
intimidated by
their threats and other forms of persecution.
This is a strategic
retreat --NOT a surrender. But enough is
enough. I need a break.
And come hell or high water, I am going to take
one.
OVERWORKED AND UNDERPAID
I can no longer afford to spend my
time doing research and writing
articles for which I am not paid, while
trying to fend off the
severe harassment I have been targeted for over the
past seven years,
which I can only compare to trench warfare. I need to do
whatever
it takes to reduce the extreme stress, in order to avoid a total
collapse. I have suffered from posttraumatic stress disorder for
many
years. And in my case, since the traumatic stress is ongoing
--not just a
one-time, past-tense "stressor" from which I am attempting to recover--I have no
choice but to remove myself from all stressors which are under my control
--until I can catch my breath and make a new battle plan.
In lieu of
further public activism and publishing articles on the
Internet, I plan to
spend the better part of my time finishing
my book, titled "Hardwired: The
True Story of a CIA Black Ops Survivor."
Those people who are seriously
interested in my research and experiences can buy the book. At least I won't be
working for no compensation.
I am thoroughly exhausted and I am no
longer willing to burn myself
out nor allow my resources and energy to be
totally drained, meanwhile being forced to struggle for basic survival.
I've known plenty of people who pay lip service in support of Freedom
and Justice for All. And who complain about outrageous violations
of
human and constitutional rights. But for the most part, that's
where their
efforts seem to stop. Few are willing to put themselves
on the line to fight
for what they say they believe in --not if
it threatens their personal
comfort and security. Not if they have
to make serious sacrifices for the
cause. As for myself, I've had
no comfort, nor security, for many years.
Sacrifices ? I've exhausted my store.
I'm also tired of being an unpaid
investigator for those who are
too lazy to do their own research and seem to
take for granted that
just because I have "gone public" with my own case as
a survivor
of CIA mind control and related black operations, I owe it to
them
to work overtime to answer their personal queries or provide them
with research data, much of which they could with a little effort, find for
themselves.
I have not made any money by publishing my newsletter,
except for
the occasional donations I received from people who wish to
support
my work. There are simply not enough of these supporters and the
contributions to my Legal Defense and Research Fund --few and far
between-- don't begin to pay even the work-related expenses I incur.
Much less the living expenses of daily survival.
I have had my
phones and electricity cut off several times. Recently, I returned from a trip I
made in an attempt to get some desperately-needed R&R, only to find my
Internet service cut off, since my payments were way behind. I scraped up the
money and got my service restored, but as a result, was unable to afford to buy
food for an entire week. I've had enough of living like Old Mother
Hubbard.
Having said my piece about that, and vented some of my
frustration,
I do feel the need to finish what I started in Part 1 of this
report.
It would not be fair to the readers or to myself to leave these
issues hanging, and as the title clearly proclaims, to Set the
Record
Straight is very important to me.
TED GUNDERSON REDUX
A Response
to Barbara Hartwell: Ted L. Gunderson Analysis of the
Barbara Hartwell
Article Entitled Time To Set the Record Straight,
was published on March 26,
2001 on a website called Educate Yourself.
http://educate-yourself.org/tgresponsetobarbarahartwell26mar01.html
Ken
Adachi, the website's editor, supplied a preface in the form
of an "Editor's
Note" presumably to "educate" the readers about
a few of the various persons
featured in Ted's article. But before
I address the article itself, I have a
few comments directed to Mr. Adachi.
I think it would have behooved Mr.
Adachi to "educate" HIMSELF
prior to writing his preface. His editor's note
is chock-full of
misinformation, not only about myself, but apparently, also
in regard
to others, namely Kurt Billings, Stu Webb, Virginia McCullough and
Kate Dixon.
I'm sure these others are each very capable of
addressing any such misinformation about themselves. Virginia McCullough and
Kate Dixon have already done so. See: Bay Area Observer Demands
Retraction From Ted Gunderson, and Ted L. Gunderson, In Your Case,
Even
Bad Publicity Is Good Publicity.
http://www.newsmakingnews.com/gundersondumpnew4,4,01.htm
In the same
link you'll find my article, More on the MKULTRA Controversy, as well as my
brief letter to Mr. Adachi, in which I have pointed out the ignorance and lack
of professionalism which is apparently characteristic of Adachi's peculiar brand
of yellow journalism.
It is clear --to me anyway-- that Adachi's main
source for his "Editor's Note" was none other than Ted L. Gunderson himself. And
so, in his "educational" preface, Adachi offers profiles of various individuals
--a sort of rogues' gallery-- and echoes what are clearly the opinions of Ted
Gunderson & Co., stating these opinions as if they were facts.
It is
also clear that despite my request, Adachi found it convenient
NOT to
publish my letter to the editor on his own site. Which tells
me that
objectivity, fairness and journalistic integrity are sadly
lacking in Mr.
Adachi's repertoire. But enough of Mr. Adachi, except
to say that for those
who wish to "educate" themselves, let's hope
they find a more reliable
source of information than the personal
biases, outright lies and slanted
viewpoints --toadying to the various persons he chooses to feature in his
editorial commentaries--which comprise Mr. Adachi's website .
Perhaps a
more fitting name for the site would be "Indoctrinate Yourself ".
The
so-called "response" which Ted Gunderson wrote to Barbara Hartwell has me
somewhat baffled. That's because most of Ted's "analysis" addresses people who
were never mentioned in my article, some of whom I don't even know, such as
Robert Ghostwolf, Debbie Nathan, Art Bell et al. He actually "responded" to very
little of my own testimony and avoided most of the issues I brought up, rather
than addressing them.
I think I understand that Ted was trying to make a
point: He believes
he is being targeted in a larger conspiracy to discredit
him, and
says he believes that I was influenced by some of the alleged
conspirators and (as Mr. Adachi phrases it ) "joined in with others striving to
discredit him". As far as my alleged part in this conspiracy, nothing could be
further from the truth.
The various people with whom I discussed my
dealings with Ted Gunderson and to whom I repeatedly confided that I wanted to
believe nothing but the best about Ted, should know. I told everyone that I was
willing to continue to give Ted the benefit of the doubt, no matter what
negative opinions certain others may have held. And I had flatly refused to
"join in" as part of a campaign with any others who may have had their own
reasons to try to discredit Ted.
First of all, I don't make it my
business to try to discredit anyone.
The way I see it, those persons who
become "discredited" usually
manage (sooner or later ) to discredit
themselves by their own words
and actions. They don't need any help from me.
(By their fruits shall you know them.)
Secondly, the only issues I have
ever publicly addressed are those
which related directly to MY OWN dealings
with Ted. I have no desire
to hurt anyone, nor to speak ill of anyone; only
to speak up in
my own defense or on behalf of others whom I believe have
been misrepresented or wronged; and to air my disagreements and grievances,
whether they can be resolved or not. Sometimes my differences with others are
quite simply, irreconcilable, as they seem to have been with
Ted.
Secondly, I am not and have never been a "team player". I don't
join groups; I refuse to toe anybody's party-line, and I don't
jump on
the bandwagon just because others want to recruit me for
their own agendas.
For this reason alone, the very idea that I would
"join in" with anyone as
part of a campaign to discredit Ted is
ludicrous and laughable, as anyone
who really knows me well could
attest. As it happens, Mr. Adachi knows
nothing whatsoever about
me, and I'm beginning to wonder how well Ted
Gunderson knows me,
since he has put forth some very inaccurate ideas
regarding me as
well as the general scenario in which the events he
describes unfolded.
Although I don't doubt that Ted, like many of us who
have been involved in public presentations of conspiracy-related research, may
have been targeted by various people or collectives whose interests it would
serve to discredit him, I have no reason to believe that some of the people he
mentions --at least the ones I know of, such as
Kurt and Lee Ann Billings,
Mike Ruppert, Virginia McCullough, Kate
Dixon and Stu Webb--had any such
conspiratorial agenda in mind.
As far as I know most --if not all-- of these
people had each, at
one time or another, in all fairness, given Ted
Gunderson the benefit
of the doubt, before they individually decided -- each
for his/her
own reasons-- that he no longer deserved it.
Mike
Ruppert's commentary on Ted Gunderson is also published on NewsMakingNews, as
part of what was posted as a front page story: The Players, The Power, The
Plays, The MKULTRA Controversy. (NewsMakingNews link above. )
But it is
not my place to speak for others, nor to presume to discern
their various
motives. So speaking strictly for myself, I repeat:
I never at any time
"joined in" with anyone who was part of a campaign to "discredit" Ted Gunderson.
Anyone who has ever spoken with me about Ted knows that the only thing I was
interested in was finding out the truth.
In order to satisfy my own
standards about the truth of any issue,
I need facts, solid evidence and the
testimony of witnesses I deem
credible. Only armed with these etiological
tools --along with my
own spirit-filled intuition-- can I hope to establish
what I believe to be the truth.
Now, by this point, there may be some
people who take me for a fool
for having continued to give Ted the benefit
of the doubt. There
may be others who believe just the opposite, thinking me
a fool
for breaking off an association with someone whom I have repeatedly
publicly stated --including in Part 1 of this article-- was instrumental in
helping me.
I don't particularly care what anyone thinks of me and I do
not
give in to pressure from others simply because they want me to side
with them. But whether or not I have been a fool, for one reason
or
another, I will stand up in my own defense; especially when I
find
misinformation being published about me, such as that which
Ted has written
in his analysis.
THE COMMITTEE TO DEPROGRAM (or is it REPROGRAM ?)
BARBARA HARTWELL
Let me start with the most salient piece of
misinformation, which
runs as a thread throughout Ted's report and which
seems to serve
as the basis for his "analysis" of me and my situation.
According to Ted Gunderson:
"It appeared to me that Barbara was
being reprogrammed and/or influenced by the Billings.
For a period of
time, she showed signs of breaking out of the grasp
of the CIA. So what did
the CIA do ? They planted Kurt Billings,
a CIA mind control
victim/programmer, in her lap. "
Ted also states: "... for a time after
this Barbara was part of
the campaign against me. She has stopped this and
apologized to me."
I don't know the sources from which Ted derived his
idea --which
I have done my best to refute-- that I was part of this
"campaign".
I do know that I have not spoken to Ted Gunderson since January
of 2000.
The only communication from that time to the present between
Ted
and myself was through an intermediary, a mutual friend and professional
colleague.
On several occasions I had discussed with " Bill " (a
pseudonym) the conflict I was having re Ted. In one such conversation, in
the winter of 2001, I told Bill that I felt badly that things had turned out the
way they had between me and Ted. I had asked our mutual friend (who spoke to Ted
on a regular basis) to tell
Ted that I was sorry that the disagreement
between us had caused
a rift in our friendship and that I had no hard
feelings about Ted.
That I still cared about Ted and hoped that someday our
differences might be reconciled.
But I never "apologized" to Ted for
having any (non-existent) part
in a campaign to discredit him, nor did I
ever resolve my differences
with Ted. Perhaps Bill, in his efforts to be a
peacemaker, relayed
a different message than the one I asked him to deliver.
Being a
supporter of both Ted and myself, he may have felt divided loyalties
which finally weighed in for his greater support of Ted.
My last
conversation with Bill was disturbing. He relayed back to
me a message from
Ted: That Ted wanted me to know he was still "on
my side" no matter what. I
was happy to hear this....until Bill
segued into trying to persuade me that
what I REALLY needed was
to be "deprogrammed". This, he thought, would solve
the worst of
my problems (Yeah, right. ) I can only surmise that this piece
of unsolicited advice was a result of Bill discussing my "problems"
with
Ted --and probably Sue Ford, the self-styled mind control "expert" who had
repeatedly admonished me about the dangers of not being formally deprogrammed.
Anyway, after hearing the latest from the newest recruit for the
Committee To Deprogram Barbara Hartwell, I quickly got off the phone
saying Thanks, but no thanks and God bless you, Bill. And saying
to
myself: Another one bites the dust !
In any case, Ted has made it
abundantly clear that he believes I
am still operating under programmed
control. Ted says the CIA "planted" Kurt Billings for the purpose of
"reprogramming" me. Otherwise, why would I have been "critical" of Ted or Sue
Ford aka Brice Taylor when according to Ted, I had never been critical of either
of them before ?
But hold it right there, Ted.
I certainly HAD
been critical of Sue Ford in the past, even confiding
some of my problems
with Sue to Ted himself, long before I ever
met Kurt Billings and long
before I publicly addressed these issues,
and with good reasons. Those
reasons are outlined in Part 1 of this
report. I certainly did not need to
be "influenced " or "reprogrammed" by Kurt Billings to be "critical" of Sue
Ford. It just so happened that when Kurt and I compared notes we realized that
we had each independently made similar observations. Our experiences in our
respective dealings with Sue were also very much alike. Namely that Sue had
behaved in a manipulative, exploitive and self-serving manner.
But our
common assessment of Sue Ford did not end there. Both of
us saw clear
indications that Sue was still being routinely handled
and that she had not
in fact broken mind control programming, despite
her vociferous claims to
the contrary. Kurt and I both have the
training to offer a considered
professional opinion on such matters.
That's not to say our opinions are
gospel. They are only opinions.
However, considering that Sue Ford has
publicly slandered both of
us by offering her own such opinions of each of
us, we are certainly
entitled to reciprocate in order to clear our names.
As for being publicly critical of Ted, for the purpose of "discrediting"
him, that was certainly not my intention. I was simply telling the truth about
my disagreement with Ted's allegation that Kurt was a " CIA plant " and my
unwillingness to continue a professional association with Sue Ford, whom Ted
continues to unconditionally endorse.
But in good conscience, I have no
longer been able to endorse
the activities, the viewpoints or the
credibility of Sue Ford for
quite some time. And considering his latest
public statements about
me, I have finally reached the point where in order
to clear my
own name and defend my reputation, I have no choice but to adopt
the same position regarding Ted Gunderson.
ON THE CAMPAIGN
TRAIL
I quote from Ted's article:
"The next time I heard about the
Billings, they were involved with
Barbara Hartwell and the result was that
Barbara began publicly
criticizing Brice Taylor [aka Sue Ford] and
myself"
For the sake of argument, let's examine Ted's ideas regarding the
purported disinfo/slander campaign against him as a hypothetical scenario.
The CIA "plants" Kurt Billings for the purpose of "reprogramming"
Barbara Hartwell. The agenda of the CIA in this operation ? To
make BH a
part of the campaign to discredit Ted Gunderson. As a
result, BH joins in
with other conspirators (Also working for the
CIA? Also under mind control ?
) and having been successfully "reprogrammed", back in the "grasp of the CIA",
she is activated in a mind-controlled mission. Objective: To discredit Ted
Gunderson. (And let's not forget the redoubtable Brice Taylor).
But let's
be realistic. Why would the CIA think I have the political
clout to make a
significant contribution to discrediting one of
their presumably most
high-profile targets, namely retired Senior
Special-Agent-in-Charge, 27 year
veteran of the FBI, Ted L.Gunderson?
Why not use someone with "official"
status, with unquestionable
government-sanctioned bona fides ? Or maybe a
bogus whistleblower
or slick disinfo agent having access to a large and
formidable public
forum. Someone with the resources and backing to mount an
effective assualt on Ted's credibility.
Now, in fact, this is a fair
approximation of what Ted suggests
to be the case about Art Bell. Art Bell
is regarded as a celebrity.
His radio show has one of the largest audiences
in the world. He
has tremendous influence in shaping public opinion. But
even assuming Ted's hypothesis were true, why would someone like Art Bell
(described by Ted as "the American hero" ) need any help from the likes of me
?
As for myself, it is ironic that not only have I been blacklisted
from mainstream media due to my whistleblower status; but reliable
sources --as well as my own common sense and personal experience--
tell
me I've even been blacklisted by certain promoters/producers
of alternative
media. I've also been set up by certain talk-show
hosts who invited me on
their programs for the purpose of ridiculing
or discrediting me. (Clay
Douglas, of The Free American, a crony
of the infamous Mark Phillips, comes
to mind, but that's another story.... )
Let's face it: I certainly
haven't won any popularity contests --among ANY faction or collective of
influential persons, no matter what their agenda or their politics. Most of
these groups don't like
me because I insist on remaining autonomous and
refuse to join up
and be a mouthpiece for whatever it is they're promoting.
I haven't
yet published any books. And the talent scouts are not beating a
path to my door to invite me for speaking engagements. Having nothing
to
sell, I have nothing to promote.
So I repeat: Why me ? Why would the CIA
consider it imperative that
I be involved in the campaign against Ted
Gunderson ?
Does the scenario that Ted Gunderson presents make any sense
? Not
to me, but then maybe I'm a little dense. Or maybe I should just find
myself a good deprogrammer. Maybe then I'll finally see the light.
But
let's get real: Although I am aware that the CIA would like
nothing better
than to have me back in their grasp, and have in
fact made many such efforts
to that end, including for the purpose
of "reprogramming" me, any such
attempts have failed. Always have, always will.
Ted, Sue and their
entourage may believe what they choose. But,
as God is my witness, I'm outta
there ! I have shown my adversaries
that I'm willing to lay my life down
fighting for my freedom, if
that's what it takes. And they know I mean
business. Bottom line: They'll never take me alive.
But even so, I can't
imagine the CIA's reason for wanting me back
under their control would be so
that I could become just another
cog --and a low visibility one at that-- in
a disinfo machine against
Ted Gunderson. No, I'm sorry to say that the CIA
has far more weighty
issues with me, and they have nothing to do with Ted
Gunderson.
Sorry Ted, it doesn't compute. I only wish my life were that
easy.
SEX SLAVES AND SATANISM GALORE
Ted states: " I suggest that
Brice Taylor has been targeted due
to the books she has written about her
mind control victimization
and the public stance she has taken over the
years to expose mind control and ritual abuse."
But I disagree with Ted
yet again. I don't believe for a minute
that the "stance" that Sue Ford has
taken would make her a REAL
target of the CIA perpetrators of mind control.
On the contrary,
her public presentations and books promote exactly the sort
of
sex-scandal-and-satanism sensationalism which would appeal to the
lowest instincts and echelon of the general public; while also serving to
create a smokescreen which provides a distraction from the REAL black operations
which the CIA and their minions are so desperate to keep under cover. Bread and
circus, that's the ticket.
Investigative journalist Rayelan Allan, editor
of Rumor Mill News,
agrees. Though she doesn't cite Sue Ford as a particular
example,
her assessment of the CIA's basic disinformation strategy is
strikingly similar to my own.
Here, a few excerpts from her article,
Barbara Hartwell --CIA Mindcontrol Survivor:
" I have steered clear of
most of the mind control victims who have
'gone public' and written books
about their experiences. Gunther
[CIA agent Gunther Russbacher, Raye's
ex-husband ] told me that
the 'famous ones' were created as 'cover stories',
designed to sidetrack researchers and the public, rather than expose mind
control. This was done in a sensational way in order to discredit ALL serious
research into mind control.
Needless to say, the type of mind control the
CIA and NSA created
is NOT about making sex slaves for high-ranking NWO
government and corporate leaders.
....the CIA and NSA have a lot more
important things on their agenda
than creating sex slaves for satanic
rituals and satisfying old men's perversions.
Gunther told me that if
Congress ever got the 'balls' to conduct
a hearing into mind control, that
the Monarch women would be 'trotted' out to discredit the entire hearing and
make researchers and actual victims of mind control [ Manchurian Candidates]
look like fools."
(To read entire article:
http://www.rumormillnews.net/cgi-bin/config.pl?read=8208 )
Thank you,
Rayelan.
Now let's hear from investigative journalist Robert Sterling,
editor of The Konformist.
An excerpt from Robert's article, Lurid Sex
Tales of the New World Order:
"Speaking of dubious tales, the ones that
both Cathy O'Brien and
Brice Taylor present are, frankly, implausible and
ludicrous. To
take them as absolute truth shows the undeniable sign of
having
a faulty bullshit detector, and endorsement of such tales stigmatizes
the endorsers as an unreliable source. The end results of these
stories
is the same as disinformation. Perhaps it is all unwitting
and
unintentional, but if it is, it certainly is fortunate for those
in the
military-intelligence establishment, as the CIA couldn't
have planned for it
to come out any better if they tried. "
(To read entire article:
http://www.steamshovelpress.com/latestword4.html )
Thank you,
Robert.
Now a few more comments of my own regarding sex slaves, satanic
ritual abuse and the cases of the notorious " Monarch women". And
BTW:
My bullshit detector is functioning just fine.
Cathy O'Brien, co-author
(with Mark Phillips) of TranceFormation
of America, publicly touts herself
as: "The ONLY vocal and recovered
survivor of the CIA's MKULTRA mind control
program".
Taylor/Ford, not to be outdone, claims that she is: The HIGHEST
LEVEL survivor of the CIA's MKULTRA project EVER to go public. "
But
are these grandiose and self-important claims really true ? Not on your
life.
And I would be more than happy to explain why.
First of
all, I would hardly consider Cathy O'Brien to be "recovered"
in any way,
shape or form. If she has in fact "recovered" from her
mind control abuses,
why in hell is she still involved with a man
like Mark Phillips ? Phillips
has proven himself --by his own words
and actions-- to be NOT the hero who
"rescued" O'Brien from her
evil tormentors, as he so modestly claims, but
rather a slick, smooth-talking con man and containment/disinfo agent. ( I read
somewhere that he actually worked at one time as a used car salesman -- I can't
verify that but it certainly fits the bill. )
Phillips has also cashed
in bigtime on the tales he and O'Brien
are selling. Sell disinfo and make a
buck -- the CIA's answer to free enterprise.
And.....the ONLY recovered
survivor ? Well, if O'Brien represents
the ONE-AND-ONLY to have publicly
"vocalized" her shocking story,
I guess the rest of us mute and miserable
MKULTRA survivors might
as well admit defeat and throw in the towel.
Unless of course, we should be so lucky to find a knight in shining
armor like Mark Phillips to "rescue" us from certain doom. An ancillary
benefit: A handy excuse to continue to evade self-responsibilty.
We
could trade in our previous handlers and programmers for a new-and-improved
model: An all-around, multi-purpose Mr. Fix-it. Not only that...it's
cost-effective. For the CIA, that is.
And what about Sue Ford aka Brice
Taylor ? Sue proclaims herself
the HIGHEST LEVEL MKULTRA survivor EVER to go
public.
I can shed some light on that humble claim as well. But I don't
know where to start....
Perhaps I could start by pointing out that in the
REAL black operations, the "highest level" roles were certainly not filled by
"sex slaves".
And in fact, any "high-level" operative (whether trained
under mind
control or not) to be utilized in the most highly classified
black
ops is considered by the CIA as a major investment. To train and
groom a truly professional operative requires a good deal of time
and
money. The CIA doesn't squander their investments. No, indeed.
They're
banking on hefty returns.
"Sex slaves" or "presidential models" as they
euphemistically like
to call themselves, would in fact be considered the
most "low level"
and "expendable" of mind-controlled operatives, if in fact
catering
to the debauchery of high-ranking gov't officials was their primary
role. And "national security" considerations go far beyond mind-controlled
prostitution and pornography "going public". As if THESE issues would be the
most pressing concern of the criminal elements of the U.S government
perpetrating illegal covert operations ?
No doubt about it: The perps of
gov't mind control are a sleaze-ridden and degenerate bunch. But using "sex
slaves" as the "highest level" operatives? Give me a break.
Have I made
my point ? I sure hope so, but if not, those who may
have been hoodwinked by
these shamelessly ludicrous claims are free
to continue deluding
themselves.
MISSION IMPOSSIBLE
Back to Kurt Billings. If Kurt, the
alleged "CIA mind control victim/programmer" was indeed sent to "reprogram" me,
as Ted claims, he must've --sho 'nuff-- been slacking on the job. (Shame on you,
Kurt ! Whattsa matter with you ? )
Or maybe it was Mission Impossible.
Considering the fact that never
at any time was I in the same room alone
with Kurt for even a few
minutes, is it conceivable that such a thing could
happen ? Maybe
in a science-fiction spy thriller, but not in the real
world.
Most times when I saw Kurt and his wife Lee Ann in person, there
were other people ("outsiders") present and it was usually in a
public
place, such as a lecture hall. All other communications between myself and the
Billings were by phone calls or e-mail. (Could "email-reprogramming" be the
latest advance in the CIA's psychotronic weaponry ?)
Furthermore, I never
had the opportunity to speak with Kurt in any
real depth or detail about my
own previous programming, though I
very much wanted to. This was because of
the severe harassment and
sabotage of our communications which both Kurt and
myself were targeted for, in attempts by the perps to make sure that such a
thing did NOT happen. It was very clear to both Kurt and myself that the
perpetrators of CIA mind control did everything in their power to
PREVENT a situation in which Kurt might be able to assist me in
recovering some of the more deeply buried memories of my experiences
and
programming. Or a situation in which I --as a living example
and survivor--
could add to the body of evidence by validating some
of Kurt's detailed
research into the CIA's MKULTRA program and related black operations.
And
BTW: I never asked Kurt to "deprogram" me; nor did he ever make
such an
offer to me. As I have previously stated in other articles,
I had already
broken my programming in 1994 after years of battling
with my handlers, with
no help from any "deprogrammers" nor other
human agency nor formal
methodology. Kurt was simply one of very
few people I had ever met who
understood much of what I talked about
and came from a similar
CIA/Military-Intelligence-community family
background. ( As Ted Gunderson
spared no effort in pointing out. )
But so what ? Just because Kurt, as
a twenty-year researcher of
mind control, had the capacity to understand
more than most people
about my background and the ways in which I was
utilized by CIA,
does that mean that he was "planted" to reprogram me ?
And lastly, if ANYONE were sent on a fool's errand to "reprogram"
me
and actually made such an attempt, I would have kicked his ass
first and
asked the questions later. (Assuming he was still conscious.)
But
that's history. I've already been there, done that. I am nothing,
if not a
dangerous woman. (Kurt Billings, "CIA programmer": Take Note and Abort Mission.
)
Gunderson and Ford have no evidence whatsoever to substantiate their
foolish allegations that Kurt was "planted" to "reprogram" me. And
--if
it were possible-- even LESS to substantiate that the alleged
"reprogramming" was successful. Please, take it from me. I was THERE,
and the scenario these folks are setting has no basis in reality. It just
didn't happen.
What's more, these false allegations are libelous to both
Kurt Billings and myself. Not just misinformation, but PUBLIC DISINFORMATION,
considering its purposeful dissemination, not to mention the total lack of
evidence and documentation. Kind of reminds me of Sue Ford's latest book......
I must also say that I feel somewhat insulted that Ted could so
greatly underestimate my intelligence, my perceptiveness and my
strength
of purpose. (If in fact he really believes the allegations
he is making.)
Despite his purported beliefs about Kurt Billings,
it seems strange that Ted
would think I could have been so easily
re-recruited, influenced or
"reprogrammed" especially when he had
ample opportunity to observe how
severely I had been targeted precisely BECAUSE of my firm and intractable stand
against my oppressors.
Also strange is that Ted never mentions this in
his report. He stresses how "Brice Taylor has been targeted", citing as evidence
" the numerous negative articles...written in an attempt to discredit both of
us."
But there's not a peep from Ted regarding the extreme harassment
directed at me, some of which he personally witnessed and documented
and
which he spoke about right alongside me in public lectures and
on radio and
TV programs. But you don't need to take my word for
it: The video and
audiotapes where I spoke with Ted --complete with
Ted's corroborating
testimony regarding the neutralization campaign
against Barbara Hartwell-
are readily available. For a price, of course.
THE SURVIVORS'S GUIDE TO
BOOTLEGGED VIDEOS : PIRACY ON THE WORLD WIDE WEB
And speaking of those
videotapes...Ted says " Although there are
allegations [ the ones I made in
Part 1 of this article ] of profit
made in the sale of books and videos, the
only profit any of us
working toward ending this abuse have received, is the
reward of helping others. "
I surely can't deny that's true of Yours
Truly. Yes sir, I allowed
my testimony to be captured on videos, without any
expectation of
financial returns, precisely because I was so dedicated to
exposing
the abuses of CIA mind control and the black ops in which I was
exploited and victimized. Because I wanted to see justice done.
Not just
for myself, but for any others who may have been victimized
and had their
lives destroyed by human rights violations.
And it's certainly true that
I PERSONALLY have never seen a penny
in "profits" from any of these videos.
Making a profit was never my motive.
But can Ted and Sue truthfully say
the same ? The ONLY profit they
ever received was in the warm fuzziness of
"helping others " ?
What happened then, to all the money from the
voluminous videotape sales ?
Did it evaporate into thin air ? Was it
transported into another
dimension ? Was it stolen by a Satanic cult ? Was
it abducted by lizard aliens ?
Where's the money ?
I guess maybe
they donated it to charity,....but enough of this
nonsense....I think I feel
a headache coming on.
Frankly, I certainly would have appreciated being
able to ALSO earn
some money from these enterprises, since everyone else
involved
has done so and since living in abject poverty is not conducive
to my health or well-being. And I certainly did not deserve to be
exploited by others who pirated these videotapes, which are now
being
sold all over the Internet and by mail order. If those who
are selling these
tapes REALLY wanted to "help others" wouldn't
you think they might start be
helping just ONE of the mind control
survivors --namely myself-- who made it
possible for this information to "go public" ?
As I mentioned in Part 1
of this article, I have NOT EVEN SEEN some
of these videos, in which I
appear, because ironically, I can't
afford to purchase them from any of the
various "entrepeneurs" who are selling them.
And so I repeat: If that's
not exploitation, I don't know what is !
THE OFFICIAL GUNDERSON REPORT ON
BARBARA HARTWELL
It seems clear that Ted has now disavowed his previous
endorsement
of my credibility. He calls me a "victim" of CIA mind control (
"whether she thinks so or not" ) rather than a "survivor". Which
means
he's saying that I'm still under mind control.
The distinction between
"survivor" and "victim" makes all the difference in the world. A "victim" can
still be accessed and controlled.
A "survivor" is someone who has
successfully broken all such programming and controls. (Whether s/he has totally
"recovered" or not. Is there such a thing as TOTAL recovery from CIA mind
control ?
I still don't know and maybe I never will. ) But considering Ted's
all-out crusade to endorse the credibilty of "Monarch women" such as Sue Ford,
maybe it's not such a bad thing after all, for me to have been struck from Ted's
list of officially-endorsed mind control survivors.
Ted says: "I have no
animosity against Barbara. I love her and always will. "
Sadly, at this
point, that's one of the few things in Ted's report
that I believe may
actually be true. I say this because --believe
it or not-- I also still feel
the same way about Ted, despite the
obvious conflict of interests and
irreconcilable differences. One
of my all-time favorite quotes from Persian
mystic Rumi: "Love is
the astrolabe of God's mysteries" sums it up best.
Yes, it's a mystery all right.
But as I think I have proven, I do not
allow my personal feelings
about people to get in the way of my pursuit of
truth and justice.
I'll admit I'm just a ruthless bitch-on-wheels when it
comes seeing
the truth exposed and justice done. I still hope that some day,
I may be able to resolve things with Ted. I say that with all sincerity and
from my heart. Although the prospects for that are not looking so good, miracles
have been known to happen.
THE INFAMOUS E-MAIL LIST
I started my
electronic newsletter, the Hartwell Intelligence Report,
in 1999. For about
two years, I published my reports by using an
e-mail list as well as having
my reports posted on various websites.
Most of the people on my
subscriber list were those who had contacted
me after reading my material on
the Internet and asked to be placed
on my e-mail list. In the beginning I
didn't use blind copies when
e-mailing my newsletter, because I was
inexperienced in using the
Internet and did not realize that some people did
not want their
names and e-mail addresses displayed to others. When several
people
requested that I send my newsletter to them by blind copies, I
changed the format so that everyone received blind copies. This worked out well.
That is, until I made a simple mistake last year and inadvertently failed to
send one of my reports by blind copies. All hell broke loose in my little corner
of cyberspace, but that's history.
Unfortunately for me, history
repeated itself one more time last
March. Once again, it was a simple
mistake when I failed to hit
the blind copy icon. ( Sometimes I make
mistakes, what can I say
?) The addresses on my e-mail list were exposed to
all and sundry.
And not just to those on my original list; they were also
forwarded
and posted on several websites.
Upon recognizing my
mistake, I immediately -- the next day-- issued
an apology to everyone on my
list --sent by BLIND copies. I acknowledged my responsibility for exposing their
names and e-mail addresses and explained that it was a simple, inadvertent
mistake on my part.
I don't blame those who were angry at the invasion
of their privacy
( there were several such people) or having their mail
boxes jammed
with unwanted e-mail from strangers. But alas, despite my
polite
appeals to the individuals who took advantage of my mistake and
used my list to send their own messages, to nip it in the bud, and
despite my repeated profuse apologies to those who were subjected
to the
e-mail deluge, the pirating of my list continued apace. And I took the heat.
Things quickly spiralled out of control. I --and all the others
on
the list--began receiving e-mail exchanges from a few people
who decided to
exploit my mistake by using my list as a public forum
to air all their
grievances; some of whom tried to use my subscriber
list as a free-for-all
group therapy session, and perhaps most offensive, to proselytize and
disseminate religious propaganda.
Which brings me to the last issue I
will address in Part 2 of Setting
the Record Straight. The religious
issue.
BIBLE-THUMPERS AND HOLY ROLLERS UN-ANONYMOUS
Hi. My name is
(fill in the blank) and I would like to share with
you the GOOD NEWS and
invite you to become a witness for Jesus.
Jesus is Lord. HE will solve all
your problems. But if you refuse
to be converted; if you don't accept HIM as
your personal savior,
you will burn in Hell for all eternity. ALL OTHERS who
deny the
ultimate supremacy of Jesus are FALSE religions. The apocalypse
is drawing near.....Repent, while there's still time. Jesus is the ONE and
ONLY answer. Amen.
Sound familiar ? The last thing I needed was THESE
sorts of propaganda tracts being disseminated to harass the subscribers of my
newsletter.
Now, if I haven't yet been a winner of any popularity
contests,
I'm not likely to win one now. A lynch mob is more likely after
I state my position on THIS subject. But I simply must. As an important part
of Setting the Record Straight, I simply must. So here goes...
First let
me state that I have nothing against Christians. In fact,
I have nothing
against any member of ANY religion. As long as the
adherents of said
religion do not engage in aggressive, intrusive
tacics, in trying to foist
their religious beliefs on me. As long
as the adherents do not violate the
rights and religious freedom
of others in spreading their message or
practicing their religion. Amen.
Now let me set the record straight on my
own position regarding
religion. I long ago made an INFORMED and
well-considered decision
not to ascribe to any religion or be affiliated
with any church.
This decision was not made lightly. I went through seminary
training,
where I studied all major religions of the world. I was ordained
and licensed as a Universalist minister in 1979. And then dropped
out. I
am no longer a "woman of the cloth". In addition to seminary
training, I
received many years of formal --albeit less traditional--training in various
spiritual disciplines which began when I was 16 years old, in 1967.
But
way before I had any such training -- as far back as I can remember-- I have
ALWAYS known God. Not "believed" in God. KNOWN God.
Since for me, God
defies explanation, definition, categorization or limitation, I cannot further
explain. I have always been willing to listen and to learn. That's why I went
through seminary training and that's why I went out of my way to study spiritual
disciplines. But speaking strictly for myself, being indoctrinated with various
forms of religious dogma is not what knowing God is all about.
Many
people, readers of my newsletter and articles, have assumed
--falsely-- that
I am a Christian. I make frequent mention of God
in my writings and have
stated that I broke mind control programming
"by the grace of God". That's
certainly true. But why, oh why, must
so many people assume that it can only
be THEIR Christian concept of God to which I refer ?
Let me elaborate
further. To me, God is neither male nor female.
God is gender-neutral,
although there are aspects of God which
may be generally perceived as
"feminine" or "masculine". And the
mysteries of God and the universe are not
limited to the the biblical
overlord "Jehovah" nor to one entitiy known as
Jesus Christ, who
lived in the flesh on one planet in this vast cosmos,
during one
historical period of time. To me, God is so very much more than
that.
To believe what I believe is my prerogative. And I never attempt
to impose my spiritual beliefs on others. Freedom of religion.
Live and
let live. Respect the spiritual integrity of others. That's my creed.
Why
then, do others, especially fundamentalist Christians, think
it is their
right to try to impose their beliefs on me ? Or more
relevantly, on the
subscribers to my newsletter?
One such religious zealot, a man calling
himself Pastor Mike Clute,
exploited my e-mail list to proselytize for
Jesus. He even sent
numerous private messages to me personally, in his
attempts to convert me to the Christian faith.
Here, some excerpts from
his e-mails to me:
"My Dear Sister...you need to understand how the
Creator works!!
"This [ my inadvertent mistake in not sending blind
copies] was
no mistake but a grand and glorious break thru [sic] for the
kingdom of our Lord Jesus Christ.
No mistake, no mistake, no
mistake.
Let these people howl and complain [ those who objected to
receiving
the flood of unsolicited e-mail ] but what they think is an error
and an intrusion is a glorious opportunity to escape the tail of
the
dragon whipping them to death, Rev. 12
I hope you can grasp just a speck
of what I am trying to tell you Barbara.
You have done just what you were
supposed to do [ making a mistake
in NOT sending blind copies] and Satan is
angry, claro que si (Yes
of course). But don't worry. Jesus is leading you
on to victory.
Would you like to get into a position spiritually where
these people
[ the NWO and CIA perps of mind control ]can no longer touch
you or harass you ?? Think about it....Read Rev. 3:9 and ponder the meaning of
it and ask the Lord to make you part of His end time army. Rev19. "
Thus
spake Pastor Mike Clute.
Somebody... please... pull the plug !
Or, as they used to say in vaudeville shows: Get the hook !
Who
does this guy think he is ?
After weeks of having such messages arrive
--and ignoring them until
I could take no more, I sent him an e-mail,
politely requesting
simply that he REMOVE my name from his e-mail list. But
that did
not deter him from his quest. He e-mailed asking why I had an
"attitude" toward him. So I decided to explain it to him.
Finally, I bit the
bullet and sent him a personal response.
Here, some excerpts from my one
and only response to Pastor Clute's many intrusive messages:
"I don't
have any "attitude" toward you. But I do have a serious
problem with some of
your actions and YOUR attitude toward me..."
I find your religious
proselytizing offensive and disrespectful.
I don't need anyone to tell me
what I should believe or try to foist
their own religious beliefs on me. You
are entitled to your beliefs,
just as I am entitled to mine...You directed
your proselytizing
at me personally, assuming --falsely-- that I needed
spiritual guidance from you...Not respecting the spirtiaul beliefs of others by
attempting to force your own religious beliefs on them is a form of
totalitarianism.
I do not consider the Bible the "word of God" nor do I
take it as
my spiritual authority. In my opinion you only show your own
ignorance and spiritual immaturity when you falsely assume that you and your
fellow Christians have corned the market on spiritual truth and that anyone who
does not conform to your beliefs is somehow lacking in the knowledge of
God.
I do not waste my time arguing with others who try to convert me
or who disagree with me. I simply ask that others respect my right
to my
own beliefs just as I respect their right to their beliefs.
That's what
freedom of religion --or the INDIVIDUAL's right to refrain from practicing a
religion-- is supposed to be about."
Have I made my point ? If so, that's
all I have to say about the
subject of religion. If not, oh
well....
But while I think of it, just one more thing. Here's a quote
that
pretty well sums up my own spirit-filled knowing of God:
"Do you
need proof of God ?..... Does one light a torch to see the sun ?"....Buddhist
proverb
And lastly, to Set the Record Straight about my battle plan,
here's
another of my all-time favorites:
"Knowing the other and
knowing oneself,
In one hundred battles no danger.
Not knowing the other
and knowing oneself,
One victory for one loss.
Not knowing the other and
not knowing oneself,
In every battle certain defeat.
...Sun Tzu, from
The Art of War.
-Barbara Hartwell